I think that one of the worst things that we can do to ourselves is to forget our awesomeness.

Self-doubt is a real bitch, isn’t it?

Wouldn’t you agree?

I thought so too.

The problem, I am realizing, really lies within that pesky little brain of ours.

Man, can it just flat-out lie to you:

  • You are not enough.
  • You can’t do anything right.
  • No one likes you.
  • You will never be as (fill in the blank) as (fill in the blank).
  • You have to be the best or else no one will love you.
  • You might as well just quit.

As I write these out, I realize that these are just completely irrational fears.

And just ridiculous as well.

They sound so silly saying them out loud, yet they feel so vicious and real when you are hearing them in your mind.

So what do I do when self-doubt is tormenting me?

I bake. 

Baking can be torture for me but I have a masochistic love for it.

Because it is a challenge for me, I try at it often.

You could even say that I am David and it is my Goliath.

Sometimes its monolithic stature overwhelms me and leaves me to believe that I cannot conquer it.

That is why I do it.

I fear it. 

I face it eye-to-eye until I fear it no more.

Or at least until I realize that there is nothing to fear.

Only mistakes.

And mistakes, I am trying to teach myself, are good.

Baking is my teacher.

My guru.

My nemesis.

My helper.

I might not be great at it but I am trying to understand it.

 It teaches me most about life and self-doubt.

What I’ve learned is that you cannot spend too much time in your head.

Planning.

Thinking.

Re-hashing.

You just have to do it.

***The best part?***

The people in your life will still love you even if the muffins you make aren’t the best thing they have ever tasted.

You are more than your baking.

Your job.

Your friends.

Your beauty.

Your blog.

Your self-doubt.

You are completely enough without any of it.

Quinoa Pumpkin Muffins Recipes

***Please note that I now use and suggest this updated and revised recipe for Pumpkin Muffins.

INGREDIENTS

  • 1/2 c. quinoa flour
  • 1/2 c. quinoa flakes
  • 3 Tbs refined coconut oil, melted
  • 1/2 c. canned pumpkin
  • 1 Tb flaxseed meal + 2 Tb warm water (or 1 egg)
  • 1/3 c. hemp milk + 1/2 Tb apple cider vinegar (let sit for 10 minutes) = buttermilk
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp ground ginger
  • 1/8 tsp ground cloves
  • 1/2 c. brown sugar, packed
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
DIRECTIONS
  1. Combine flours, baking soda, powder, salt and spices together in a small bowl.
  2. Combine remaining ingredients together in a large bowl.
  3. Pour 1/2 flour mix into the wet ingredients until combined. Repeat with remainder of flour.
  4. Greased muffin tin with coconut oil. Pour batter 3/4 full.
  5. Bake at 400 degrees for 22-25 minutes.
Makes 6 muffins.
You can find these bad boys on Slightly Indulgent Tuesday. Oh yeeeeaaaaah.